Yulran 🌱 @Yulran@yulran.masto.host

Those are my last weeks working in the lab for my phd, so I'm starting it again! My hands are not used to this anymore, I have a terrible handwriting

I started this thing when I was 9, when for a whole week I write down every single thing I do, like a very detailed diary.
It's quite cool to read again! I did it a couple of times since and it's so interesting to have those traces of how exactly was my life at those periods. I like reading autobiographies so of course I like mine too.

The last one is from 2010, when I was still in high school. I was scribbling notes on paper scraps all day and writing it down in proper french in the evening.

They mentioned during the call that them accessing my username would change my password, and yeah, after an hour I can't log into the Arbeitsagentur website anymore

Last time them changing my data to my legal name activated the account before I received the activation letter so my conclusion is that their website is a joke.

But they said I should receive a new password and an explanatory brochure within an week, so let's see

And they explained that I need to register on the jobböerse website, because they see I don't have an account.
That's the website where I uploaded my documents because they linked to it in their email, through?

But they said there are two jobbörse accounts, one to find a job and one to get unemployment benefits, and I'm very confused but I couldn't formulate my confusion so I just said "ja" and "ok"

They asked what they could do for me and I was like "I don't know? I was asked to get an appointment so you tell me what to do?"

I was only understanding half because I'm not really familiar with bureaucratic german, I think they said I need to go there personally and the call was optional, if I need advice

I'm waiting for the phone call of the unemployment agency and I don't know what they will ask me or in which language so I'm very stressed

Recently horrifying a friend with this fact reminded me that:
I shower with my eBook reader sitting on the shower shelves with the soap and and nobody can stop me.

(This toot brought to you by the fact that I need to go wash my hair, finished my book yesterday night, and I don't know what to read now.)

Looking forward to be writing my thesis on a laptop sitting on the ground outside any day it stops raining.

There was some sun today so it makes me even more annoyed that I spent the whole day inside the lab failing to get results.

I don't understand why I'm so annoyed! I even hanged behind a sunny window for 10 whole minutes, so that probably doubled the amount of sunlight I saw in the last weeks. But now I want more sunlight, and the sun is set already

I guess I'm mostly frustrated about my experiments. But I also want sunlight

My therapist found that super interesting but now I'm feeling that way again

I wonder how much of my feeling of walking on eggshells and my fear of him and the sudden feeling of rejection I got as soon as he was not 100% nice and caring with me, is due to the fast than he's a man the same age as my dad was last time I spent more than a few days in his presence.

Actually now that I think about it, I feel this way about all post-docs the same age at work too

He explained it's not for people who work in addition of being student, so I told him that I'll be eligible in December, and he said we'll talk then. And I guess it went fine? But I can't shake the feeling that I did horribly wrong, failed this communication, and now he's probably thinking less of me for having asked. Like I tried to cheat him while his place doesn't have much money to spare either.

So it took me days to be brave enough to send my student id (now that it has the correct name) to the manager of my sports place since he once mentioned a discount for students, and he sent an audio message back which instantly made me panic, as in "aaahh he's probably refusing, it was super rude of me to ask, why did I think I was allowed to ask?".

Well today I learned that the cat command was actually made for what its name implies
(Saving computers from cats)

I don't really get how it was fitting inside, I didn't think the handle was hollow.
But I didn't dare look because that implied bringing my head closer and I was afraid it would jump on my face

There was a huge spider living inside the handle of my bike

I saw the spider hang under the handle but when I tried to swipe the threads away it ran to hide inside, so I had no other choice than bike like that, constantly checking that it wasn't about to come out and climb on my hand.
But at one point I stopped for a minute, the spider came out and this time I was quick enough to wipe its threads with a leaf and put the spider away at some tree!

That's the most cuddly of the two cats, sadly it's also the one who thinks that fingers are toys to be chewed on, so him being so close to my keyboard is a bit stressful.

I left the cats alone for a little more than a day (noon yesterday to tonight) and they scattered torn paper everywhere, pooped on the carpet next to me when I didn't immediately clean their litter, and then one jumped on the ceiling lamp while I was cleaning.
I can't even be angry, I'm weak for cats

I opened mastodon to write how I'm amazed that I can, in fact, use X-forwarding from my work computer to my laptop (I was convinced it didn't work, turns out I just didn't know how to use it), but then my laptop was attacked by one of the cats I'm catsitting for friends and it crashed