Yulran 🌱 @Yulran@yulran.masto.host

Hi, my supervisor is making me feel guilty for not working over the weekend, while I've been cooking at the light of candles since the beginning of the week because I work during the full opening hours of the neighboring stores selling light bulbs, how is it going for you?

But also look at this! I was struggling with inkscape and my wavy surface looked horrible, now I have a cool 3D (although not vectorial) drawing, in perspective, with the correct font at the correct size to go with the rest of the documents.
It was a pain as the 3D module is not clearly enough documented that I understood how to use the functions (maybe if one knows c++), I had to find other people's code to copy, but so worth it

So I'm on my way to pick up my boyfriend who's visiting me the next few days, I had to wake up at an indecent hour and that was not helped by the fact that I was drinking coffee remotely debugging the makefile I just learned to do to automatically analyse and plot some data and make a 3D drawing in asymptote (which I also spent the last two days learning, and that's not easy with such a difficult name to look up) before compiling the final pdf.
It's all for my paper so it's allowed

I spent the weekend in the lab, even my ex supervisor came in to see if she could figure out what I'm doing wrong.

Presented the (absence of) results to my professor this afternoon, he said it's time to give up and start writing, I'm too exhausted to know if I'm sad or happy about that.

I don't want to be too happy too early and curse it but I think I am measuring *something*, there are some oscillations in this noise

I posted on the digital labbook today's entry labelled as "might maybe have what could pass for a possible signal again", and I give up! Most people left 5 hours ago, it's past bedtime and I want to go home.

So today's the day I was supposed to be done, next week is the "if really really needed" extra week, and I didn't yet find if what I want to measure is measurable

I mean I thought it was bad as in "nearest supermarket is a couple km away", or "no public transport to the neighbouring school", or "too expensive to have small buisnesses here" but like, *illegal* to build anything else than a specific kind of house until the horizon?

I just watched this video where a canadian is showing how neighbourhoods in the Netherland have small shops and restaurants mixed with housing, and he also showed that it's not like that in Canada and the US, and now I understand what the deal with north american "suburbia" is

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bnKIVX968PQ

I don't know who else needs to hear this but even robots and other automatised tools break, need maintenance, and make mistakes sometimes.

Waste of time according to some maybe (yeah I'm still salty at my supervisor's comment), but it feels nice and motivating to be taking notes in a cool environment.
I don't want to be miserably focused on productive stuff all the time! Let me find joy in esthetics where I can.

(A narrowed captured buffer in emacs with org-fragtog-mode to toggle the latex preview on and off when the cursor enters the math)

I got scolded by my ex supervisor for starting with the template and not the content and now I feel bad

But on the other hand, we are writing a paper for which the actual submission template is very ugly with double spacing and a terrible font, I hate looking at it and have zero will to proofread all those ugly pages. So for me it makes sense to gather motivation by making it a nice template I'll want to see filled and read again and again

I'm spending way too much time perfecting my custom latex template for my CV and motivation letter and way not enough time actually writing the letter

It's even harder because I don't actually care about the position, but my supervisor is pushing me to apply as a training so I don't freeze and mess it up when I actually care, and I hate that she's totally right.

But please just let me crawl into a hole and never get out again

All that just to show animations like the welcome screen parting and zooming into a picture of a fake building, and then displaying a chat with some options to click, all in german and excruciatingly slow.

I might have not been nice in the feedback form

We had a physical bank in the canteen building of my institute, so all the new foreign employees could be directed there and get support in different languages. And now instead of reopening physically, they made a horrible website which explicitely doesn't support linux (I shows me a frozen welcome screen), and on windows only supports chrome and edge