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Employement (+) 

It caused lots of problems to get another extension but I'm now employed until mid-December, yaay :muscle_hmn_r2:

I theoretically have a presentation in our group meeting in an hour and a half and I'm trying to finish preparing, but my prof just said he's teaching so we could move it maybe next week or maybe tomorrow, I didn't understand his final decision, and then he started talking to somebody else when I was opening my mouth to ask again, and so I didn't ask and now I have no clue when I'm presenting :oh_no:

I finished Foz Meadows' An Accident of Stars before sleeping yesterday and this book is hitting hard. It's fantasy, but *very real* fantasy.

So of course I'm already 15% into the second book now :blobcatgiggle:

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Like as much as I like latex, the picture placement if you want to do anything more advanced than putting them side by side? aaaargg.

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Current work status:
I got tired of recompiling over and over my pictures-heavy presentation which I write in org-mode and export in beamer (and my presentation is tomorrow), so now I just took the pdf, synchronized it to my office linux computer, connected by ssh, separated all the pages into individual pdf files, synchronized them back to the laptop I'm working on, and I just paste the pictures with inskape now.

*German voice*
if drywall is so good, why isn't there vierwall

Tfw you increase the stroke width on a line graph 

The plot thickens

The downside of working even just a tiny bit though the weekend: I start the week already thinking "what, today again?"

Anyway, good morning to timezone comrades, good day to those who are already bravely fighting through their monday, and good night to those who are going to bed sunday :blobcoffee:

In other news I repotted my tomato plants in a bigger pot, but now the little tomatoes are angry and they didn't grow since a week :blobsad:

The measurement is not super precise because I just hold some string around them, then measure the string against a ruler. But I'm proud that I can just fill in the table every time emacs asks me to, and then just plot it from there, I find it very satisfying :blobcat:

Me: removing the pipes under my sink to clean them.

Also me: rincing my hands at this sink with the water falling straight on my feet :flan_shrug:

Anyway I hope you all have a nice weekend.

PhD thesis panic but I'm ok so far 

Welp so I spent 4 hours writing 2/3 of a page of introduction for the paper we officially have until the end of the week to finish.

Admitting my thesis will be about 150 pages, since I guess I'll have about 2 months to write it (in any case less than 3 because my prof rebuked me when I put 3 months in my time plan), that's 15 hours per day including weekends :thinking:

So I'm screwed :oh_no:

local estrogen giveaway 

I have a sizeable stock of estrogen spray (Lenzetto) that I won’t need anymore due to switching to injections. would like to give them to transfeminine people in need.

these tend to work better than gel in my experience, and could be used for:

- bumping up your estradiol levels if you can’t have your dose increased
- increasing your E2:E1 ratio if you're on pills
- starting transition safely while on the wait for doctors (though at these doses most people will need some T blocker to see good effects, but it's not nothing)

due to their format and weight (glass spray bottles with liquid) I think it’s better not to send them by post, but if you know who I am and can reach my area I’ll gladly hand them over to you~

Initiative to ban mass biometric surveillance in EU

European citizens campaign to prohibit biometric mass surveillance practices
reclaimyourface.eu/

This is one of the few posts I put publicly and I ask for a Boost!

If you are from EU or you know EU people, it could be interesting.
This is not an usual random web petition, this is an official ECI (European citizens initiative)

#ReclaimYourFace
#GDPR
#surveillance
#biometric

Maybe I'm a nerd but I now have an org-mode habit reminding me to measure the circonference of my tomatoes and put it in a table so I can plot it later.

Today they have 1.8 and 1.1 cm diameter! (conversion for US friends: smoll.)

I got out to test tested again so I could end my quarantine and the 1 hour trip back home already elongated to an hour and a half because some threads here are too interesting and I just didn't hear the train coming :shrug_r2:

I still have two more hours before a early afternoon remote meeting where I have to present, so I will be fine. But I got up way too early for my vacation-lagged self so I want to go back to my coffee soon :blobcatsleep:

parenting 

hmm #parenting philosophy eh. I don’t feel like I can opine much since it’s been some three years since I had the privilege and pleasure of being the primary caretaker, but thinking about this helps me prepare for when I get them to immigrate too, which hopefully isn’t too far off. So let's see.

Dear self, you be mommy. Please do not forget:

- Remind your children that they are loved, often. Show them with actions that they are loved, often.

- Make it clear that the love you feel for them does not depend on a specific kind of response, or responding at all (daughter is unable to respond to messages rn, hard to convey to her just how many times, how strongly, how very much, girl, girl, I been there);

- Make it clear that the love you feel for them does not depend on productivity, school grades, being "intelligent", obedience, conformance to your own dreams of what your children should be (including dreams of them being artistic, queer, rebels etc.);

- Make it clear that the love you have for them will not go away and it’s always ok to request more caring;

- Make it clear that the love you have for them is *not* unconditional and you *would* stop loving them if, for example, they became unrepentant abusers, white nationalists etc. While you know your children will never become that, this is how they learn that love is not unconditional, a lesson they'll need to apply in their own relations. You can talk, for example, about people you fell out of love with, and what damage exactly they did to warrant that. They have to think about what kind of actions would warrant cutting ties with a close relative, a close friend, a partner.

- But also make it clear that there are always a path into the good, that the problem with abusers etc. is not the hurt itself but the not caring about it. That as long as you care about people, you can find ways to own up to your mistakes. That this is what is expected of you, not being mistake-free.

- Make it clear that they know they’ll always have your financial support as long as you can give it, that you don’t buy into capitalist values of "earning one’s independence", that you are aware they didn’t ask to be born.

- If the children are doing something "for attention", then fucking. give. them. more. attention.

- Children are your legal slaves, do whatever you can to dismantle this and give them full autonomy and power of consent. You can’t do it for real, not fully, until these social systems are fully abolished, but if you have to be legally a slavemaster, at least treat your slaves like equal members of the farm. And make sure they understand just how unfair is their situation, minors are the invisible oppressed class.

- Also talk with them about what kind of behaviour is unacceptable from a powerholder, and that you are a powerholder here.

- You will fuck up. Am yet to meet a parent who doesn't. A sea could be filled with the bitter tears of parental self-loathing for stuff we did to our kids. Sometimes you will reproduce with them the exact same shitty things that adults and parents did to you, with a level of mirroring that’s downright uncanny. Be aware of this pull, then don’t do it.
- And if you do it, apologise and talk with them about why what you did was wrong. There’s a part of your mind that tries to make it hard for you to apologise. Ask this part of your mind to get out of the fucking way, then apologise anyway. Remember the times we did this, how valuable it was, how much this will protect them in the future when other figures of authority do them bad.

- They’ll be on Earth longer than you (hopefully, please, please, oh goddess please). Involve them in preparations for how to deal with the collapsing system (preparations is mostly community-building and how to teach oneself things). Their generation is at a weird place where they still have to deal with diplomas and marketeable careers etc. even as everything is already broken enough that nobody believes in the corporate dream anymore. So it’s important to show them what other dreams are there to believe in.

- Honestly though their generation is rad as *heck*, we got nothing on them, be prepared to provide them with resources then get out of the way and let them do their stuff.

- Neither hide your religion from them, nor talk too enthusiastically about it. They tend to get into stuff just to show you they like you. Make sure they understand they'll be equally close to you and equally loved no matter how much they engage with your interests, or not at all.

- Also praise, incentivise, provide resources, help, advice with their own interests that you don’t share.

- Just generally be as kind and respectful to them as you would to any other person whom you love and is not a legal slave.

Good morning!
I came back home from not having watered my plants for 18 days and I thought many didn't survive, but actually after rehydration most seems fine! The succulents are finally growing, the dead raspberry abandoned on my balcony seems to enjoy having no water at all, and my tomatoes grown from seed actually got their first baby tomatoes! :blobaww:

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